Whats wrong with me?

I find it really strange that sometimes I just start crying when I'm alone by myself and often I don't even know why, sometimes I like to watch soppy movies or depressing movies and to be honest I don't know why I do it, I don't do it ofr attention because I only cry when I'm alone and this one time I worked at this factory that was in the middle of nowhere near the sea and it was always so quiet and it was lonely bu relaxing at the same time..its like I enjoy being depressed and I like letting all my emotions pour out..I don't know if being an actor or writer has anything to do with it..I dunno.